this picture represents how free I feel. Being in an abusive relationship [while going through finding out I have a mood disorder ( Dysthymia - “Light Depression”) and dealing with my Generalized Anxiety Disorder] and being able to recognize that so quickly and so easily, made me able to see and feel proud of myself and the person I am. It was the hardest thing I had to do. I had to realize that no matter how much history, time spent thinking, talking or spent with a person, is never, ever an excuse to let yourself think you can change someone. This summer I thought I had fallen in love with the most perfect person in the world, and in a way I did, because I fell in love with myself. (YES THAT SOUNDS CORNY AND CHEESY AS FUCK, BUT THAT’S JUST HOW I WRITE, LEGIT IT’S SO WEIRD AHAHA BUT I LOVE IT) so I don’t know, I don’t want people to know too many details or feel overwhelmed I guess? But I do want people to be able to understand what I have gone through and I’m not ashamed of anything I’ve done or have thought because in the end I’m so much stronger.
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger What feels like it’s killing you feels like true death, in the sense that the pain is so strong and so deep. But that pain is what makes you human and not letting it kill you is what makes you stronger.
I have went through so much and been so strong and sometimes so weak, but now i’m beginning to understand who I am and what I love about myself. And I want to help others, but they have to be willing, and have to want it for themselves.
So feel free to talk to me about anything, anonymous or not, no matter how you feel or how you think I’ll take it, just know that no ones opinion of yourself matters more than your own.